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February 1, 2007

feeling drained

I can't believe it's February already. January flew by so quickly.

So I've been feeling out of sorts lately. I just... I'm not really all that happy. :/ I think it's a combination of things, really.

Work.
I don't know if my job suits me. I'm shy and quiet and I much prefer being in the background most of the time. That's always been my personality. But my job forces me into a position where I make important decisions and frankly, it makes me uncomfortable. I'm horrible at making decisions! It doesn't help that I constantly second guess myself. I can't deal.

Friends.
I've never had a huge group of friends and that's always suited me just fine. It's the introvert in me. But recently, I don't feel all that close to even the few friends that I have. I'm horrible at keeping in touch and as much as I enjoy my alone time, sometimes I just want to call up a friend without wondering if they'll even care to hear from me.

Weight.
I cannot fit into, like, half of my work pants. Getting dressed in the mornings is painful. I want to blame it all on the holidays but I can't. It's me. I haven't been taking care of myself. And I can't seem to figure out what I need to do to get motivated.

There are other things but I'm starting to get sick of my whiny ramblings. I'm not usually this dramatic! Really! But it feels really good to get it all out.

Posted by Kel at 11:37 PM

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I miss you. You can call me, I always love hearing from you! It's ok, I'm also guilty of bad KIT skills. It happens ;)

Posted by: Robyn at February 2, 2007 08:09 AM

Hugs!! I think it must be the end of January/beginning of Feb transition because I've been feeling a lot of the same issues as you. It's depressing and just... not good.

Here's hoping we can both find the balance and happiness we deserve.

Posted by: Sarah at February 2, 2007 08:53 AM

I've been having those same issues, too. It's the sad/whiny person in me for sure. :)

I hope things get better. As for the weight thing, I'm am so not motivated to go to the gym, but it's become this thing were I have to go. I'll be tired, grumpy, and don't want to go, but I'll force myself. I don't think gym motivation really exists.

But good luck with everything!

Posted by: Reen at February 2, 2007 04:44 PM

I hear you on the job thing. That's why I like the current job I'm in right now even though I'm technically overqualified.

My weight is bothering me too. Some of my pants are snug and it feels nasty. I'm such a procrastinator when it comes to working out though *sigh*

Posted by: Alie at February 3, 2007 08:37 AM

Second what Robyn wrote. You can call me absolutely anytime about anything!!!

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